Sorry it has been such a long time....

I will admitt, that I was very discouraged for awhile..I actually stopped lossing weight in June and never seemed to lose my than my 40 pounds..However, I am actually very happy lossing 40 pounds during the 2009 year! I have a new goal and new focus..I love January! Considering I lost all my 40 from January til June..I am on a roll to lose another 40 this year! If I can do that I will be very happy to be down a total of 80 pounds by the start of next year!

So what is your game plan and your goals for the year?

I have decided to step up my working out plan from 3 days at the gym to at least 5 days if not 6. I know as a larger person this weight loss will not work as well if I do not work out and step it up a notch! So my plan is as follows: M/W/F attend Cardio/Strength class 9am til 10am (AKA:Killer class, as my 3 and 4 year olds ask me if we are going to killer class today..lol) then on T/TH nights I hope to attend Deep Water Work out class 5:40 til 6:40pm. Now it will be hard most Tuesday nights since I also have Stephen's Ministry training but after Feb. my weekly class will be over and I will only meet with them twice a month on Tuedays. I also signed up for Sunday Step Aerobics class at 3pm.

Here is my new diet plan for the year: There is a group called Weight Loss Challenge..it is run in our town..so I signed up for that class with a girlfriend. It was only 35.00! You attend weekly for weigh in for 12 weeks. The top 3 people get to divide the money up and I am planning to be in the top 3 so I can use that money to buy new clothes for my new smaller size!! Another thing I really like as well is that if you gain a pound you have to pay into a pool of a 1.00 per pound. I am excited about that..it will really be motivating! That money goes tot he person who losses the most inches after the 12 weeks.

So..I am still alive and yes, I am still working on overcoming my greatest struggle in life..my weight! Thanks for all your support and encouargment, it has ment the world to me. ♥

9 weeks left

I was told today when I weighed in. I had bought 39 weeks of weight loss program when I signed up around Christmas time...I can not believe it has gone by so fast. I am actually ready to part with Medical Weight Loss. It was a good journey and I will work really hard my last 9 weeks to see how I finish but I am not going back. I have decided to finish up and see how I can make it through Oct, Nov and Dec on my own. I think I will buy myself a nice scale after I am done to make sure I do not find myself creeping back up..that has been known to happen but I really feel my mind set is so different this time..Please pray for me on my last 9 weeks.

I did not have to shop at the FAT store..yay!

I was in major need of a new outfit for a special even tonight..our family is rarely invited or do we really ever want to go out with 4 small boys..lol it is always interesting to say the least...

So I was at the mall in search for something..it always gives me indifferent feelings..as much as I enjoy really cute clothes but putting my body into cute clothes is always a different story..so something inside me decided to go to my "old" favorite place to shop..New York in Company, a store I used to shop at in my thinner days...I grabbed a few XL and wanted to see how they looked...it worked..I was very nervous thinking I was exposing so much of my legs that I have covered for some many years..but I did. I need to get over not liking my legs and just go for it!

Here is the outfit...I had to buy new dress sandals today...my favorite pair after 5 years of wear and tear finally broke..I loved those shoes...lol Jim painted my nails! He is such a good husband!

Getting back to the basics....

This is what I have started doing today...

I am back to writing down everything I eat. I am at a stand still with my weight loss and it is driving me nuts. I am actually very happy to be in a size 16 again and feel really good about myself but I am affraid I will get to comfortable and slowly let things slip into mouth again..and become complacent. Also, T from MWL things I need to write down my excercise because I maybe burning more calories then I am actually taking in which would cause me to gain weight..ugh! I was up a pound this morning at weigh in... So I shall see.....

I fought those urges...

I am excited I did not cave to the cookies my son wanted this morning..instead I had him pass them out at the playdate for the kids to eat..

I am also excited that I was able to overcome the urge of wanting to eat the pizza I ordered for the kids and mom's at the playdate..I never ate the pizza! It sure did look yummy but I fought it..instead I was starving..so very bad..but I ran into the CVS and bought some plain almonds and diet pop..that was my lunch..sounds odd but I still did not cave!

Just wondering...has anyone out walked a mini marathon? 13 miles? My friends said we should all sign up to walk in October in Detroit. I think it would be awesome..our goal would be to walk it in 3 hours...right now I only walked my fist 5k in May at just under an hour..that is only 3.2 miles..so I need to really train for this to make the 3 hour goal...any suggestions?

I can just imagaine...

what the newspaper would say "Big Ole Gal was crushed by weights during her workout at the YMCA" this is what happened today or almost happened today when I was lifting my 290 pounds on the leg press. I usually do this no problem but today I was wondering why do people move this part when they do this? So I moved this part..and I thought oh it makes is much easier to lift my 290 pounds on my legs..so I did my 12 reps and wanted to put the part back into place but it would not let me..I could not get it to lock into place..so I started screaming..it was going to crush me so I said "Sir can you please help me" to the old guy...luckily today there was a guy with huge arm muscles and was able to help me get out of my mess and I was able to lock the leg press back to normal....lol

I decided to leave at that point..I was done working out anyway..so I followed the big arm dude, old guy and a few other guys out of the work out room and downstairs..I heard them say " I followed that girl in working out and I could not even move her weights that she was lifting.." I laughed hard at that one..me and and the old guys who work out in the mornings...ha!

Holy Toxic!

Yes, last night was the worst that exploded out of our butts from the 4lbs of bean soup I had made for my family for the weekend..I had mentioned to the one of my weigh in ladies at Medical Weight Loss that I was stuck and could not move past the 40's in weight loss..it feels like it has been weeks since I have been stuck there...so she told me about the "Vegetarian Plateau Breaker" Great! I will try it..at this point I am willing to try anything..(well, you know I have my limits lol) So this is what my diet has consisted of for the last 2 days....

Breakfast: 2 eggs and 1 cup of bean soup.
Lunch: 1 cup of bean soup, 3/4 cup of brown rice, and 2 cups of lettuce
Dinner: 1 cup of bean soup, 3/4 cup of brown rice and 2 cups of raw greens
I could only drink water, tea and coffee (thank you this small pleasure was not taken away from me..) of course my usual 64 ounces of water and my 3 Nutrients..(I will explain that at another time)

There you have it..as exciting I mean boring as that is..I am praying for a 5 pound weight loss in the morning.. ha!

I traveled to my cousin's baby shower in Clare today. I picked up my mother along the way...it was nice to see her. I had let her borrow my copy of "The Amazing Adventure of Diet Girl" She really enjoyed it. Then she asked "so did you relate to Shauna in that book?" I said "Yes" She said "when did it start for you" and I am thinking...are you kidding me with that? What about all those times you told me I was fat and ugly growing up?????? I was screaming this inside my head...but yet I could not say one word to her? I am not sure why. Does she not ever remember saying those things to me? Has she blocked it out? I have completly forgiven her for her past actions..but I could not bring myself to tell her what was my main reason for my life long weight struggle. I do not want her to feel bad for some odd reason..maybe because I have forgiven and moved on? I can not figure this..yet, if I ever do decide to write a book about this and many other things in my life she is going to find out right? So when do I talk to her about this? She then goes on to tell me that she has never really had a food issue before and would just always skip a few meals and get back down to her weight she wanted to be at but now that she is nearing 60 it is much harder to do this....

What to do? Tell the mother? When? UGH!